GOD ONLY KNOWS - Beach Boys
I may not always love you
But long as there are stars above you
You never need to doubt it
I'll make you so sure about it
God only knows what I'd be without you
If you should ever leave me
Though life would still go on, believe me
The world could show nothing to me
So what good would livin' do me
God only knows what I'd be without you
God only knows what I'd be without you
12:40 AM
Tuesday, November 14, 2006
people, please pray for me. supp paper's on thu. Ask God to bless me. I NEED THE BLESSING ARGH. Thanks so much.
O yeah. i'm back to photoshopping if anyone needs anything.
You can breathe, you can breathe now
You can breathe but the air is running out.
(Where are You now?)
5:56 AM
Sunday, November 12, 2006
how well do we noe the ppl ard us?
i mean, lyk in church..
u may c them evrydae, lyk work wit them, crap an sh*t hav lots of fun, but do we noe if they r suffering?
are we building an atmosphere tt we can reali share? mayb not 2 a whole grp? but is there sum1 we can turn 2?
can newcomers sense this aura of care an hospitality?
or are we simply somewhere where we hav 2 put on a happy mask an hav no1 2 turn 2 in times of trouble, then we turn elsewhere.. mayb not 2 destructive tings.. but juz, away from church.
suffering in silence is the most painful ting tt can happen, an having no1 2 turn 2 is d most destructive force ever 2 ur psyce an christian walk i feel..
worse of all, most ppl hu suffer seem d least likely.
hear me try 2 be deep.. haha.. =P
wat do you guys tink? melancholic mood 2dae.
=P
*joash*
7:20 AM
Saturday, November 11, 2006
ok, todae i was feeling pretty down, cus there were some issues, and there's the cramming for the exams, and a friend was going thru a period of religious crisis, among other things.. its like life seems to start crumbling, and on the spur of the moment, i decided to go cycling. alone. at night... yea. i dint even noe y i did it! it was pretty crazy.. but secretly deep down i always tot night cycling was really kool, and esp at night when u get to see the stars (none in singapore tho, stupid haze), feel the wind (it just rained, so its frigging cold) and i always tot doing it alone was kinda romantic (wensley you're weird!) haha it wasnt really romantic, but i learnt a lot of stuff.
One thing i learnt- light is really important. seriously! cus when i went to cycle, i decided to go along the canal, and its really spooky, cus theres only a row of lights, some arent working, and its so frigging quiet, and as u peddle you can see ur shadow looming in front.. den fading.. den appearing behind u and starts looming again.. haha it kinda reminded me of psalms 23 "even tho i walk thru the darkest valley, i shall not fear".. the problem is, i was pretty freaked out, and not only that, you can barely see the road properly, and the road is wet frm the rain.. yea. so i realised, u noe, God blessed us with light and its a privilege to walk in it.. and as Christians, we ought to be the light to guide the way, cus even when people take you for granted, they really need the light.
Number 2- People are really important. As i was cycling, i was getting more n more spooked, until i saw there are other people walking along the track. (WTH!?! What are these crazy people doing here late at night!?!) i even saw 2 of em throwing fishing lines down the canal and shining a torchlight to see the line.. -_- talk about extreme.. anyway, it kinda reminded me that u noe, there's always crazy pple out there wif you on the lonesome road =) ahaha! cus at those times when your all alone, its VERY SCARY, esp when everything is dark n gloomy and you cant even see the main road, no cars, its as tho ur all alone, there's nobody left.. den you see a white shape coming towards you, den you realise its an indian walking along the path in a white shirt =) haha den u feel a little bit happier... at least u haf a bike (nyahaha!)
3- Dont look back. the whole track was long and lonely, and when you look back, you cant see the start point, and its like.. will it ever END!?!
haha, so the point was, my track in ends on a normal pathway, but there's a small muddy grassy trail which leads along an abandoned train track, which goes along a short distance then you can get off and continue the bicycle track on the other end. pretty fun cus theres no light @ all.. "i walk, by faith, each step, by faith.." haha =P
den i cycled baq home along the main road, and its a relief to see cars, bright lights, foreign workers doing roadworks.. haha yea the trip baq was pretty uneventful except that i got splashed in the face by road puddles, muddied all over the place, ended up wif a bike that squeaks everytime i peddle, and a feeling of peace and satisfaction =D haha..
i think night cycling alone is pretty fun =) but i need a bell, LED backlights and some other stuff. anyone wants to contribute to the wensley-bike-maintenance-fund! haha
6:42 AM
Thursday, November 09, 2006